I’m depressed because I don’t have the relationship that I want
I miss her but I can’t say it
Almost like it would be weird at this point
And I always wonder do I give up or do I hold on and hope it will get better
Life is spinning violently out of control
It doesn’t seem it on the outside but
On the inside it’s a freak shit storm
I’m so unhappy
I just want to feel happy with my ideas and choices
I want someone to love me and cherish me and just give me the support I deserve and I don’t feel like i’m getting
When I reach for you cheek you would turn away so I don’t reach
Every single day I set myself up for failure because every single day I hope it won’t be like the last or maybe just a little bit nicer or warmer or more appreciative
Like one day I’ll wake up and I won’t feel like a total fucking loser
I know I did something wrong but I hold myself back from asking and you will never just tell me
I’m so fucking afraid of rejection and it makes me mad
Mad at myself and resentful towards you
I just want someone to hold me and tell me it will all be ok and that i’m pretty and I mean something to them
Mick Monster 